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Thursday, October 9th, 2008
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I took a recovery day from work to nurse myself into a better condition for my close tomorrow. Saw it coming, so I woke up early just to tell them. So while I've got some time on my hands, I might as well update.
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Finally, I took some time and put a few posters up in the room. It looks much more defined now, even if it gives the impression of a smaller space. Besides, I'm quite fond of my Circles poster. >.>
I'm thinking about requesting a commission by K-9, but I don't really know if he does them. Or if he's bogged down with too much work to be interested. There's just something about the way that he draws that really captivates me. I've had one of his pics up on my desktop for the past week and a half, and it still leaves an impact. Though, come to think of it, I've never requested a commission before. Bliss used to do pictures of Bosco, and that was really cool, but she never charged me anything for them. I wonder just how much this may wind up being..
Speaking of Circles though, the latest issue finally got here a couple weeks ago. It seems that there was some kind of printing error with the shading, so everything that's supposed to be shaded is very dark. It kinda sucks 'cause you can't see Marty very well at all, due to the dark fur. x_x Still though, the ending has me somewhat confused. Gotta wait for the next issue to find out what's going on with Ken..
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So, after some prodding by the GM at the store I want to transfer to, I've been asked to make a final decision about whether I want it switch stores or not. When I got a call from him a few days ago, I didn't know just what to tell him. My last close in that store was a rather horrific experience, and I was very tentative to throw myself into more drama. That's exactly what I'm trying to escape from the store I'm in now.. I do realize that there's gonna be drama anywhere I go, but perhaps not so much on a daily basis than what happens where I am? I mean, I'm off for a weekend, and the moment I get back, I find at least one or two faces that look like there's something they wanna tell me. Its not that I don't like to listen, but I really don't think an effective management team should be at each other's throats as often as we are.
There's a couple other reasons why changing stores would be a good idea, and it'd be a great way to get in some much-needed exercise. I'm not too wild about walking on a forested road late at night, mind you..
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I haven't gone to one of the bigger malls for a while now, and walking through the music store was painful because of how much I wanted to pick up. I'm finding though, that there's a lot less money to spend when you've gotta worry about what you're gonna be eating for the week. *smirk* As it was, I did pick up a couple things because of a deal the store had on. Other than that, I had to keep my paws behind my back and just look. I s'pose there is some slight satisfaction in walking out of a store without having spent more than $60..
As far as music goes though, I've been very selective lately about what I'm listening to. A lot of Alter Bridge, Evans Blue, Shinedown, and Theory of a Deadman. And I don't care what people say about the last one there, I don't think they sound exactly like Nickelback. =P To think, someday, some of this stuff I really like to hear will become 'classic rock'. I s'pose its not that far off..
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Can't think of anything else to say that I feel is safe here, so I hope its a good day for everyone.
~Tox
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Wednesday, September 17th, 2008
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A post is past due, and there are a few things that I can talk about..
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First up, work. Just skip over this if you're not interested in hearing me vent about something that has nothing to do with anyone who may read this..
Things are messed up right now in several ways, and honestly I'm not sure just what to start with. All of the managers seem to be in a state of open war at the moment, as a promotion has finally been granted to us. The one who was promoted has really been working for it, so its good that his work has been rewarded. Problem is, there was someone -else- who was working for it, and has been doing so for quite a while longer than the other. Neither of them were getting paid for the extra work, but the prospect of a higher title in the company (as well as the perks that come with it) were worth it. From the way I saw it, the decision came down to someone with a bad attitude towards the customers and someone who doesn't have a problem in manipulating the system for his own convenience. Apparently the latter was the lesser of two evils, and perhaps those actions he's taken were unnoticed by the bosses, and he is now -my- boss. I do happen to be good friends with the one who -didn't- get the promotion, so my own views are slightly clouded by a certain bias.
Now what really gets me is that this was all secretive. The very fact that I heard about it from a member of my crew and not my boss is very annoying. What is it they're afraid of, I wonder.. we're all going to find out sooner or later, so why keep it secret? Its not like this is RIM, where it makes sense to keep some things under wraps. The guy who was promoted even had the balls to lie to me about it to me. Maybe this will make sense once everything comes full circle, but for now, being left in the dark has left me a touch bitter at the whole situation.
For something a little more positive though, our store scored rather highly on our last inspection and we obtained a title for how clean our store was from the corporate office. Which basically means that we hang a plaque on the wall to show off our achievement, and all of the managers get a small bonus in our paycheque every quarter. And as an added treat, all the crew received $10 gift cards for the store, and the management team were taken out to a fancy buffet restaurant for dinner. Given that tensions were high because of the promotion fiasco, it wasn't exactly an enjoyable time. There were a few verbal jabs being thrown between us, and the higher-up bosses didn't really say anything to the people running their store. Food was good, at least.. and thanks to a certain puppy, I had to try the garlic broccoli. =P
I really wish I could say that moods and tempers at the store will simmer and cool. But the coming days/weeks may be very rough indeed..
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I'm planning on a couple trips in the next couple months. One to visit Firebreath, and one to visit Icefox. May as well get some use of my holiday pay, instead of just blowing it all at the end of the year on things that just take up space. So with that in mind, I'm hoping for some good times to come. I will eventually find myself flying out to North Dakota again to visit my brother, but not until next year at least.
With at least -some- significant time away from home now, I'm getting the bearings of living away from the folks. Used to never be able to stay up until 6am and wake up at 2 in the afternoon before.. though I don't make that a habit. Sometimes one just gets too involved in a little D2 and doesn't realize that the sun is rising behind him. >.>
It'd be nice to say I know where my heart lies and who I'd like to give it to, but that just isn't the case right now. I'm too afraid to give it as easily as I did for my last three relationships.. and the fact that I feel so sexually isolated just exaserbates my paranoia. I do keep myself a bit repressed in this house, and I don't have any local gay/furry friends. Its something I'm working on right now through someone else who may know some folks I could get in touch with.
I also bought a light/lamp the other day from a drug store. Found I was in need of one, and they had 'em on sale, so I figured why not. But something my brother said to me came to mind a couple days ago as I turned it on.. I wonder if the bulb in this light is conductive to light therapy? Maybe it'll help with my depression. *shrugs* Just was a thought.
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This is to Tim, Wendy and Kara.. I wanted to say that I'm very concerned about your situation, and that I would do what I can to help in whatever way I can, but I'm not sure if a third-party is such a good idea. What's going on is something you guys are gonna have to work our yourselves, and I really hope that its a peaceful resolution, whenever it happens. I won't go into specifics because its all very private, but just know that I love all of you. If nothing else, the three of you are free to talk to me..
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That's all for now. Take care folks..
~Tox
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| Time: | 2:53 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. | | Music: | Matchbox Twenty - All I Need. |
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Its been almost two weeks since being out of college and it still feels strange that I don't have to wake up early to get to class. To my suprise, I finished the final project, which was a bit of a doozy. But yeah.. finished and handed in. Not sure of the mark yet; I'll have to go in to the school to find out how I did. Plus the teacher showed genuine interest about what I'm going to do next, with classes over. I'm sure I'll be going back, but its a question of when.
The final project was a rather large report on a particular career, which was narrowed down to over a process of assessments and research. Although what I looked up would be something I'm sure I could do, there's still one or two other careers that I'd like to take a look at before attempting to plan where my life is going to go for the next 5 or 6 years. Of course, I'm much to tentative to just up and make a choice, so it may take longer than I want it to. Still, it feels at least somewhat nice to have any direction at all.
Just as an amusing note, I was known as McLovin by a few of the people in class due to the fact that I brought in my McLovin shirt a few times. I swear, that shirt gets me more attention than I've had in a long time, which wasn't really why it was bought in the first place. I just wanted to pick up some funny shirts and saw it.. anyways, moving on.
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A kick to the balls came to me two Saturdays ago, just before the CEG session. My mate decided that three or so hours was too far a distance for us to see one another often enough for him to get a fill in of cuddles and fucking, so he hooked back up with a local ex and told me we were over. He says I can hate him if I want, and that he's very sorry. Perhaps I just let myself go too soon in the relationship, because I really didn't see it coming. I knew the distance and his needs would be a struggle, but not too much to handle. His words previous to the break-up gave me a hope that things would be fine, and that he was willing to sacrifice as much physical attention as he's used to getting to stay with me. I suppose I should have guarded my heart more closely.. its still a bit of a sting. But at least he imparted a concept to me that gives me hope beyond what I had with him.
Now once again I'm in a period of waiting. How long to wait before I feel safe enough to seek out someone else, or whether I should be looking for another mate at all..
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I should confess that I haven't taken my meds as often as I need to lately. Since moving out, they're not in the same place I usually see them, and typically I'm off somewhere shortly after waking up, so I forget to take 'em. So yeah.. need to kick my ass about that.
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That's all for this time around.
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| Time: | 3:33 pm. |
| Mood: |  calm. | | Music: | Chris Cornell - Sunshower. |
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Something is compelling me to take the short time I've got between class and work to make a quick entry..
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This balance of work and school isn't as taxing as I thought it would be. I had pictured it much more stressful, and granted that I've somehow tossed moving in with it, I'm not overly stressed. I've got so much to do, which is something I'm not really used to.. Really, I want to figure out a solution that would involve myself and my mate being together and that I can be in school for what I need to go in for. Though the fact that I put my mate first is perhaps something not so personally helpful. Should I be more concerned about the two of us getting closer together, or focus on myself? It almost seems too good to be true to find an answer that involves both. Not that I'm really looking for an answer, but its what's going through my mind right now.
My future is in the air right now, and that's a very unnerving place for it to be. There's going to be a lot of work and effort to make sure I get back on a good track, and that's a bit daunting to look at from the bottom. Perhaps that's just how its supposed to be though.. nothing worth having comes easy, as they say.
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So far so good with the move, by the way. I'm settling into the new room, have most of my stuff unpacked, and no issues have come up yet. There's still a few things I need from the old house, but I have three days off of work next week, so that should be ample time to gather them. I tell you though.. taking down dozens of posters is a pain when you've used thumb tacks to hang them all up. x_x
If anything, I'm wanting my Circles poster. Its something that means a lot to me. >.>
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CEG: Sorry I didn't make it to the end of the mini, but I'll contact one of you guys to find out what happened. Hopefully no one was eaten. o_o
~Tox
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| Time: | 6:44 am. |
| Mood: |  awake. | | Music: | John Mayer - 83. |
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I think I completely skipped out on updating last month, so perhaps I'll double it up in June. There's a few things to post about, so I'll start out by saying this: There is one person specifically that shouldn't be reading what I'm about to post. Not because you shouldn't know what's going on, but because if you do, you may feel inclined to flame me about it. Do us both a favour and stay out of it. I'm not going to name you, but I know you know who you are.
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First, I'm mated again. There are so many things I could say about this, so trying to organize those thoughts is difficult.. I love him muchly. He's invoked a positive side in me that's really helping me grow in appreciation of myself. That may sound selfish, but coming from where I was, its a really good thing..
I've been to see him a couple times, and I have to say that it wasn't hard to fall for him. There's been some past complications over my feelings, and now I'm able to act on them without having to wonder if its alright to do so. The time I've spent with him has been very fulfilling, and I really couldn't ask for someone else I'd rather spend the time with. He's considerate, loving, full of life, and rather passionate about music. That's mostly where we initially connected, really. Talking about bands and artists, the good and the bad, and learning things about them that the other didn't know.
It does get tricky, as it has in my other relationships, to not be in close proximity, but he's in the same country and province, and not -that- far off. I want to go camping with him this summer, but we'll see how things go.. I don't exactly have a surplus of money for such things. I'm going to have to focus on putting a bit aside to do it.. and I know it'll be worth it. ^^
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I'm in college too. Not on a full-time program, but a 9-2 ETR course. Its designed to help one figure out a career that would suit them through a series of assessments, lessons, and assignments. The main teacher is very nice and very thought-provoking. She knows a lot about what she's teaching, and its nice to have a teacher who likes class interaction over sit-down-and-study time.
These assessments have been rather helpful as well. They lay out people's behaviours and patterns, and give insight with how they can react with other people and, of course, occupations. Really, if I get nothing else from this course, learning about the depth of people in general has been worth the time. Its a government-funded course, so I can't really complain. *smirk* The assessments we've done ring up to be over $2000 a person, so yeah.. >.>
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Last thing to note for right now is that I'm moving out of my parent's house. The idea had been floating in my head for some time, but I didn't have a reason to go ahead and do it until last Sunday. There was a heated discussion between my mother and myself about my particular 'lifestyle' that she doesn't approve of, and then dad got involved.. it became something of a mess. I'll not bother with the details, but the result is that on Wednesday, I'll be taking some of my stuff over to my buddy's place and staying there for a while. We've all been talking since then, and smoothed over what happened.. but I'm not backing down on the move. Its something that I wanted to do, and now have the means to do it. Hopefully it'll go according to plan.. its so rare that things do.. =P
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That's about it for now. Much love, folks. ^_^
~Tox
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I've got a few hours to myself here while I'm away from home, but there's only one thing I have to say right now.. I'm sorry for missing that last CEG session. Where I am right now is on a wireless network and it was bugging up Saturday night, so I was on for a little bit, but the internet cut out on me and I couldn't get it started again. So yeah.. from the team entries, it sounded like one hell of a night. I've got to get an account for Basil up to post a few entries of his own, so expect that in the coming days.
Again, sorry for not being there guys. -_-
~Tox
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| Time: | 11:20 pm. |
| Mood: |  bouncy. | | Music: | Raine Maida - Careful What You Wish For. |
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Two posts in one month.. how about that. =P
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I've just returned from my first concert in ages.. the first one that I've gone to without having my parents in attendance. I don't even recall the last time I went to a show like that, aside the night of Eagle's covers at the theatre. That was pretty neat too.
Where to begin though.. it was loud, flashy and amazing. Raine Maida is one of my favourite people, and now I've seen him in person. Pardon a moment of fanboiism, but holy freakin' crap! And not only was he there, but his wife was on keyboard/piano! And for those who aren't aware of it, Raine's wife is also famous in the Canadian music industry, Chantal Kreviazuk. I've been following her since that first album and the first song I heard from her, and she didn't disappoint. Though from the angle at where I was standing, it took me a while before I could actually identify that it actually was her.
But back to Raine. His band, Our Lady Peace, has been my favourite for a few years. With all the music I have and listen to, if I had a gun to my head and forced to choose one above the rest, OLP would be it. Raine's voice has an element of a haunting high, and I specifically look for it in just about every song he's been a part of. Its like candy to me, what can I say..
One of the amusing things to me about the concert though, was just how inexperienced I am to be in such a crowd. For instance, I wasn't sure if I should bring my camera because I didn't want it to be confiscated at the door. Now that the show is over, I can still see the multitude of flashes from -other- people's cameras, and it got to a point where I just wanted to shout out 'enough with the damn pictures!' It was rather annoying that every five seconds someone's flash was in the corner of my eye or right -in- my eyes. I can't imagine that it'd be very nice to have that actually constantly directed at someone on stage.. have to admire that about performers.
There was actually a hint of pot in the air too, now that I think about it. So a ton of alcohol and a bit of drugs.. I guess it was more of a typical show than I'd know. I just hear about how things go at other shows, and this one wasn't any different except for the fact that I was there. And I loved it.
The opening band was rather decent too. I got to speak with the drummer for a minute or two, so now I know a little history behind Billy the Kid, in case the group ever gets into mainstream. The lead vocalist seemed a little busy for me to go over and say hello, so I passed on it. Ah well.
That's all about the concert though.. I'm still in a state of OMG. *smirks*
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The academic assessment went alright, by the way. Though I haven't quite finished it yet because apparently there was more to it than I was given. When I got to the school, I was given two copies of one of the tests, and I just thought it was an honest fluke. So now I've got to go back on Monday to finish it up. I'll post what the results are when I get them.
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I'm asking a few people about a camping trip in the summer.. hopefully it'll happen. But I suppose that in initiating the invitations, I've got to work out the details now. Find out where to go, how everyone's going to get there, and other such things. Its just a thought for now..
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I hope everyone had a meaningful Good Friday.
~Tox
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Wednesday, March 12th, 2008
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| Time: | 7:57 pm. |
| Mood: | calm. | | Music: | Bush - The Chemicals Between Us. |
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After two days of learning, writing and listening, I am nearly qualified in First Aid. Once I receive the certificate, that'll make everyone in the family who's qualified. How about that, eh? There's a lot to remember, and quite a few details to keep in mind with someone in danger, but hey.. if nothing else, one can improvise. I'm half-tempted to go out and purchase a first aid kit now.. now that I know what the items inside of it are for. Or at least most of them. One thing's for sure, I must get the first aid kit at work supplied correctly.. especially if I'm going to keep on injuring myself while on the job. I've sliced one of the joints on my right index finger, which happened two weeks ago, and last week I cut open my right palm. Not having a good month for accidents. The big problem with it is.. there's no wrapping or gauze at work. So yeah.. gonna have to fix that.
One other note about doing this.. while I wasn't the one driving, I noticed so many potential accidents on the expressway. The quality of driving seems to sink lower and lower the further one gets to Toronto. God help me if I -ever- drive in the big TO. It may be statistical that since there are many more people there as opposed to here, the ratio of crappy drivers is larger.. but I don't really care. I'll stick to the subway.
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I've had a talk to the guy I dated last month rather seriously.. and it doesn't look good. Although we're friends, its not likely to ever progress past that. That's just how it goes sometimes, I guess. The one I spent a weekend with some months ago wants me to go back up to visit him, and I intend to do that. Even if nothing comes from it, its nice to know someone wants me to visit them. Besides.. he's rather cute. *ahem*
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My knee has started to give me some pain when I put a lot of weight on it. I don't recall smashing it against anything, so what this is is beyond me. If this pain persists longer than a couple weeks, I should go get it checked out. Sometimes these things just need a little time to heal. Or at least I like to think they do..
My general health is a bit of a concern to me too. I know I'm overweight and don't exercise much, which is something that really needs to change. Dad bought one of those walking machines. Not a treadmill, but the dealie with the handlebars that move as you walk. Yes.. I said dealies. Its not difficult to use, and it does give a good workout if you stay on it long enough. That's at least a start for him.. and possibly for me, if I go on it often enough. With this knee problem, I don't know how well I'll do, and walks outdoors really inspire me. Doing both would be good for me. But anyone that knows me knows that I rarely do things that are good for me. *smirk*
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I've got an academic assessment tomorrow morning. I've got a Red Bull waiting in the fridge for 8am.. I don't do well in the morning. From what I understand, this should tell me how much time its going to take for me to upgrade my marks for college-level entry possibility. As things stand, even though I've been working for the past 6 years or so, my grades are hurting. The last thing I did for school was an internship program that took my work and made it into something academic. Basically, write a journal for every day worked and hand in a few assignments. I started out perfectly, and received praise from the teacher for doing well.. but mid-way I did what I typically tend to do. I stopped doing the work, got lazy, procrastinated and barely scraped by to get the credits at the end. If it wasn't for the fact that doing the program got me my highschool diploma, I'd have said it was a waste of time. I can't let myself do that if I'm going to go to college. Somehow I've got to kick my ass and regain a lot of self-discipline. There's a lot of money to throw around when one talks about college or university, so I can't afford to screw this up. Even if I'll -get- a loan, I don't know. But at least this assessment is a start to something. Something more than what I'm doing right now..
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That's all for now. Woot.
~Tox
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Sunday, February 17th, 2008
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| Time: | 2:13 pm. |
| Mood: | anxious. | | Music: | Dave Matthews Band - Ants Marching. |
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I had a date last week.
Yeah, I did. Wasn't sure when I was going to get myself to post that up here, but there it is folks. And it felt rather nice.. the downside of it though is finding out just what to do from here. I find myself longing for his company and affection, and yet its still so soon. There has to be a pace in place or things will go much too quickly and spiral out of control. I think..
In any case, I don't really know how he feels about me. I'm pretty sure that all my talk about just how paranoid I can be didn't help. I dunno.. I felt rather deeply about someone else I went to visit a few months back, and now I'm not sure just how I feel about him. Is dating always complicated? *smirk*
I'm avoiding using specifics here, but if anyone is -really- that curious, I'll talk about it. Maybe it would be good to have someone to talk to. *shrugs*
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I'll tell you one thing though. Visiting this friend of mine gave me some inspiration to write again. Or rather, I feel that creative flow that I used to feel all the time some years ago, so with some time, I can start up on the second chapter to my Circles fanfic. Its been over a year since I finished the first one, and I think it might need some work. But at least it was something I did instead of something I just had lingering in my head.
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I'm meeting with someone tomorrow who hopefully can help me plot out some kind of course for college in the next year or two. I've checked out a couple of the local schools to find programs that catch my interest, and I did find a few. There was one course that dealt with behaviour in people, and I'm -so- into that. I find people to be so neat sometimes, and the myriad of depths and places the human mind can comprehend and create is facinating. If only I could read minds, there is so much more I could learn about it. *chuckles* But yeah.. we'll see where it goes. I'd like to start in school sometime soon, finally getting myself out of this Wendy's rut I've been in for the last six years or so. Which isn't to say that its been all bad there, but its time to move on. I may not have a whole lot of dreams to achieve, but where I am is not where I want to be.
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I just can't get him out of my head. -_-
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I've taken a little gamble and purchased a couple 'best of' CD's. One is by The Doors, and another is by Elton John. One of my local friends is a 60's and 70's guru when it comes to music, and whenever we drive somewhere, he's always got -some- old band playing on the radio. Really, I think its time to start appreciating where all my music came from, being that I have so much of it. Maybe I didn't pick the greatest music to begin with, but at least its a start. I'm not completely oblivious to what came out back then and what it sounds like, but I've never actually gotten -into- it. I've just thought it was the past, and something that inspires to what I listen to today.
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That'll wrap up this entry I think. Everyone have a good day! ^_^
~Tox
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Saturday, January 26th, 2008
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Yeah. Hasn't been a fantastic year so far, but there's still plenty of it to go for great things to happen. Either way, one must be open to the experiences to get anything from them. I hope to learn a great deal this year..
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First off, I was in North Dakota for 9 days and a handful of hours beyond that. It should have been closer to 10 days, but travel plans don't always work the way they're laid out. Rather than landing in there at noon, I touched down there an hour to midnight. I'm getting used to flying around now, and its rather neat to be so high off the ground. You get to see a window of the Earth for however long you're up there.. see everything that's been touched and everything -not- touched. Roads, rivers, buildings.. its neat. And always a good idea not to think about the myriad of things that could happen to bring you crashing down to the scenery. Heh..
There are a lot of things I could say about the trip itself, but for the sake of privacy, I'll just say that being around distant family can be rather tense. Especially when there is so much secrecy going around and everyone tries to keep the best face they can and keep particular thoughts and feelings buried. I think that love expands much more when you're faced with the trials that test how much of it you have, and particularly in the example of family. My family is rather small.. or rather, the family that I know. There's a lot more of it over the Atlantic. So really, with so few people to -call- family, its important to get along..
On a brighter side, I spent some time with my two nephews and adorable niece. Sure, they didn't listen to me very well, or give me much time to myself.. but there was something different there. Something about being an uncle that became very real to me.. something I'm not sure was there before. I was there, where -they- lived this time. I dunno exactly how to say it..
One last thing that I'll say about the trip for now is that I spent over $150 on clothing. That's a lot for me. =P
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2007 was a good year for music for me. Some of the CD's I picked up last year were really good, in my opinion. I think I bought more than I remember, but one that -does- come to mind is from a group called Mariana's Trench. They're out from BC, from what I read, and they have a good mix of riffy music and good vocals. In some of the songs, there are these harmonized acapella moments, and other times, the lead singer sounds a bit like Richard Patrick. Which, to me, is really really awesome. *grin*
One disc that I bought a few days ago though, was the one I was waiting for. The new See Spot Run. And I must heave a heavy sigh in that its not as great as their previous CD's. It seems a tad campy with songs like 'My iPod Killed My Girlfriend' and 'Caffine'. None the less, I adore Chris Brodbeck's voice, and I really think he could do some amazing cover work. If only he had a decent backup band.. I will force myself to like this CD eventually. Its not -terrible-, don't get me wrong.. just a tad silly for what I expect out of what was, to me, a decent Canadian foursome.
Another disappointment for me was Chris Cornell's new work. 'Carry On' doesn't have the same feel that 'Euphoria Morning' had. The latter was one of the my favourite CD's to date.. so maybe I'm just being too picky. But he's another vocalist that really catches my attention. Myles Kennedy from Alter Bridge is a rather close match, and both of them can belt out a fantastic range of captivating singing.. And speaking of Alter Bridge's follow up disc wasn't as good as the first one. Maybe last year wasn't as great for music as I remember. *chuckles* I'm sorta writing this on the fly here, so don't judge my flip-flopping opinion too much.
Just to sort of redeem myself here, 'Minutes to Midnight' by Linkin Park was something I picked up last year that I rather enjoyed. It was a change from their usual sound, and I think it was a neat side to the group that mostly went unseen from their first two CD's. I don't really count their collaboration with Jay-Z a real album.. I like to pretend it doesn't exist. >.> In any case, 'Minutes to Midnight' was decent, and I really give LP a thumbs up for changing direction in midstream to expose something besides screamo-cut-myself-screeching. Which I also like. Go figure.
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I've decided to go back to my old RP group. The one I moved to doesn't seem to be moving at all, and being that I'd rather not nag the management to get things going again, I'm gonna take Fox up on her invite back to CEG. Though, as I understand, quite a bit has changed. If nothing else, there are some new faces to learn. And mine will also be a new face, I suppose. Starting fresh with a new character.. which means yet again, I'm going to have to get used to a different set of mannerisms and learn how to react in social situations under a different personality. I've done it several times already, so it shouldn't be difficult.. and this time I'm bringing a skilled psion to the table. I do wonder how long it'll be before JW puts his usual 'kick me' sign on my back though. =P
I look forward to the fun.
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Alright folks.. that's all I've got for now. Keep on truckin'.
-Tox
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Tuesday, December 11th, 2007
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| Time: | 10:19 pm. |
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I'm at a point right now where I don't know who's reading this, but am rather curious.. I'm not going to ask for people to reply just to tell me, but curiosity is a funny thing. In any case, its time to brush off the dust and write an entry. Though I suppose I -could- write the entry with the dust, seeing as its been several months since my last post.
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To start with, I'm no longer in the relationship I'm in. I gave in to my doubt of how much I loved the other person and decided that he shouldn't be kept waiting for me to give my all to him. And its not to say that he wouldn't, but he'd been pressuring the hell out of me with heaps of affection and I just couldn't keep up.
I'm not particularly happy, but much less stressed. I don't have this on my shoulders anymore, and I do feel relief to be finished with it. That really shouldn't be the way a relationship should go for someone you want to take as a life partner.. I suppose it was just time to move on. And who knows what the future will bring.. things could change. I'm not the master of my emotions or feelings quite yet, but I do get tested frequently. In any case, I really do hope that he's able to find someone who will give him what he needs. Despite the actual spite I have for the guy, he's still human. No one should be held in a place where they can make no mistakes. That's always the hardest place to fall from.
So I guess this means I'm free again. It took me quite a while to get over my previous relationship, and due to lacking of closure, I was dragging my feet around far more than I should have. I didn't want that to happen this time, and I feel that what I had is behind me, leaving me room to move forward.
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I picked up a pencil today and found myself sketching to the tunes of Finger Eleven. They were off a disc that I haven't heard in quite a while.. brought back some memories, as good music often does when you pick it up after a significant amount of time has passed since you last listened to it. Heck, I remember that I bought a Lit CD along with this one while music shopping.. Now, the sketches looked very rough and not very good. But it was some sort of creative outlet and it actually was rather enjoyable.
Then again, this here is -also- a creative outlet. Maybe I'm just trying to get some of what's inside -outside-. I've found myself even picking up my guitar from time to time. I don't know much on it, but just playing -something- is really cool. Its not just random silliness, but things that make sense and sound good. Even if I'm not too practiced, it sounds good to me.
The next thing I want to start doing is writing. Its been a couple years since I put any ideas down, and given how enjoyable it is for me to do, its shameful that I've not done it more frequently. I think that I can get quite good at it, but its practice that will give the answer to that one. I have the materials to do it..
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See Spot Run is coming out with a new CD sometime in the near future!! I know that there's only a handful of people in the world who will understand that statement, but damn it, I'm excited!
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Well, that's all from me for now folks. Take care.
~Tox
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| Time: | 7:23 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. | | Music: | The Watchmen - Top Of The World. |
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Its been to long since my last post, so it seems like now is as good as any to put one up. It seems that a long time has to pass before I get the kick-in-the-ass to write. Not that I should look for an excuse to write, really, but anyway..
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I guess I'll start with my visit to Ice about a month ago. Really great times, and I really wished they hadn't ended. Was able to experience some new things with someone I care deeply about, and it feels good to have opened myself to be -able- to experience them. Of course, not everything went perfectly and smoothly.. but the only person that -really- knows about that is him. And hopefully that's where those experiences will stay.
Its been years since I played mini-golf, and it was really great to be able to do so with a good group of great people. I have to say, its really relieving to be myself, and I do mean the myself that was able to have fun, not the myself that I have to be when I'm at home. Two gay couples and a straight one, putting together after a heavy rain fall.. it was definately a time to treasure.
Spent quite a while in Guitar Hero too. Ice is rather good at it, and although I've caught on well myself, I'm not as skilled at it as he is. Great songs though.. ones that I hadn't heard in ages, and ones that I couldn't believe I was playing to. Not to say that the game puts one in the same bracket as someone who can -really- play the guitar, but I read an opinion about it that I agree with. One doesn't need to have been through a war to enjoy a war game, so really, if you -can- play, anything on top is just gravy. Though I really do wonder why one would play the song 'Crazy on You' at the Warped Tour.. *smirk*
We did quite a bit of driving, and in some cases, looking for snazzy places to eat. Places I've never been to. I mean, I didn't know White Castle was an actual chain of restaurants! Such tiny burgers.. I suppose its worth saying that we looked for a few adult places, but really didn't have any success with it. I'm actually curious to find a collar that I can engrave my name on.. can't really explain it. I just would like one.
His folks were great to me, just as they were last time. They're really good people, and I'm glad that they don't feel I'm doing something horrific with their only son. I'm glad to be in their good books, and hopefully that won't change... especially if I have to bring Ice up here to live.
I have to say, the visit really reinforced my feelings for Ice. The last time, things were very shaky, and the relationship suffered because of it. But now.. now I am glad to be with him, and do spend a lot of time wishing he were around or I was visiting him again, if for no other reason, for the company. For the feelings that arise when we're together..
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While I was away, I bought an iPod. Nice little thing.. and since purchasing it, I must have drained the battery at least 6 or 7 times. I use it a lot.. its so much better than carrying around 30+ CD's with me to work. Of course, it also means that its that much easier to steal a bunch of music off me, and a machine that was rather costly, and given that such a thing has happened to me at work, I need to be -really- careful with trusting people. I wouldn't imagine any of my workers would take it, but that's the way it goes sometimes.. you don't expect it, and it happens, and you've got no one to blame but yourself with a bunch of theories on who it -could- be.
That said, its taking a good chunk of time to rip my CD's to the comp to put them on the iPod. I'm getting through it slowly because I get to enjoy what I've put on it from time to time, rather than putting on a bunch and forgetting certain songs have been uploaded to it.
Needless to say, I enjoy it. Maybe I should name it. *chuckles*
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Something else I did with Ice was watch an episode of Scrubs. A show that I've only heard bad things about, and didn't have a particular want to see. However, now that I -have- seen it, I must say, I was missing out on something great. It harbours such sarcasm mixed in with a serious nature of hospital work, and I just can't get enough of it right now. I own two seasons of it already, and am looking around for the others.
"This would be the best place in the world to work if it wasn't for all these sick people."
I love Dr. Cox.. I mean, R.J. is cute and amusing, but I just can't resist Perry's tossed salad of insulting wisdom, though I doubt there would -really- be any doctors out there like him. There's just something about a lack of professionalism in a hospital that I can't see happening in the real world. Though I could be wrong.. I've never worked in the field.
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I'm about halfway through the last Harry Potter book.. its a good read so far, but I keep finding myself too distracted to keep reading for longer than an hour. I'd really like to get through it so I can discuss it with the guys at work who've read it already, and there are some questions that I'd love to know the answer to.
Harry Potter vs. Voldemort. Gotta know how that turns out.
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Alright.. I'm about done for now. Its good to get this stuff out.. Take care folks.
~Tox
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This thing has gone so out of hand that I had to delete my apology post. I'm still sorry to the team for what I did, which is coming due to personal thinking and not because I felt bullied into making it. Whether its believed or not is up to the people who its made to, and thus far, two people out of the group have flat out turned it down. And I can respect that, due to the circumstances. I will say that upon mentioning my second group to Fox she immediately called me an asshole and started blasting me from there. I don't expect this will mean a thing, but being that her side seemed to have illusions of her complete innocence and didn't even bother talking to me to get a fair opinion, I'm sure I'll be up for scorn again. And just to be clear, telling me your feelings and then blocking me doesn't really count as anything but being immature.
Yes, feelings were hurt. I didn't have any intention of having things this blown up.. all I wanted was a little understanding. But its too late for that now, so I hope everyone feels really good about themselves and how they've demonized the situation and the people in it. That includes me.
~Tox
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Why not...
1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Visa. Not because its crippling, but because its always freaking there.
2. Where's the best place to eat a romantic dinner?
...I did have dinner at The Olive Garden with a love of mine. I suppose that was rather romantic.
3. Last time you puked from drinking?
I haven't. Don't plan on it. Especially with all the stories I hear at work when -they- do it. One guy burst a blood vessel in his eye and it was red for weeks!
4. when is the last time you danced on a bar?
I haven't done this either. Does this make me boring..?
5. Name of your first grade teacher?
I think her name was Mrs. Kreller. But that might have been grade two.. neither years were very memorable.
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
Inspiring people in a way that doesn't make anyone feel stupid about being who and what they are.
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
A baseball player. Now? I don't even -like- the sport.
8. How many universities did you attend?
None. And its not looking hopeful.
9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now?
Because its chilly down here in the basement. Otherwise I probably wouldn't be wearing one right now.
10. GAS PRICES First thought?
Not that I have a car.. or a license.. but I don't think they're very nice. People complain about them all the time, so -something- must be wrong with 'em.
11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you?
I don't really mind where I am. I would just love to be in a different house.. and be there with Chris. *ahem*
12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
How many times can I afford to hit the snooze button before I -have- to get up. And the second one was wondering why Chumbawamba is playing.
13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
What would happen if I came back in time to visit myself..
14. ???
We can't entrust the Sword of a Thousand Truths to a newb!
15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?
...does it have to be the -opposite- sex? Boxers..?
16. What errand/chore do you despise?
Dusting. Picking the little things mother has collected up and moving them to another area, dusting it, then moving it all back again.. so tedious..
17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer at an art gallery?
Why not.. that way maybe I can see some really neat pieces. And maybe look sternly at a bunch of kids who are getting too close to the velvet rope.
18. Get up early or sleep in?
I prefer staying up late.. so naturally, sleeping in!
19. What is your favorite cartoon character?
Sideshow Bob.
20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with someone of the opposite sex?
Again with the opposite sex.. well, a movie or jamming to some music is probably right at the top of the list.
21. A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing?
...nothing comes to mind. Plenty of secrets, but none to tell. Sorry. ;)
22. Are you planning on remaining in your current Job?
Not planning on it. But I don't have a plan to begin with.. so here I am. Still at my job.
23. Do you see yourself married in the next five years?
...I'm gonna have to go with a maybe. There are too many complications of my love life right now. *smirk*
24. Your favorite lunch meat?
Turkey!!!
25. What do you get every time you go into Asda?
(For all you non-Asda knowing peoples, that would be a grocery store.) I didn't know that. Nor have I ever been to one. But maybe.. some duct tape? Everyone needs duct tape.
26. Beach or lake?
Lake. Private and peaceful.
27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20?
Hey, if people who love one another want to make it very public, then marriages are great! If not, then why waste the money?
28. TV show you miss?
Futurama. At least I've still got Zoidburg...
29. Favorite guilty pleasure:
Watching Disney's Robin Hood.
30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?
Warriors of Virtue. Its a cheesy kids movie.. but its cool! It really is!
31. What's your drink?
Sex on the Beach.
32. Cowboys or Indians?
Cowboys. And I -really- don't want to say why.
33. Cops or Robbers?
Cooooookie Crisp! ...er..cops, I s'pose.
34. Do you cheer for the bad guy in a movie?
Nah. Mostly the bad guys are jerks.
35. What Hollywood star do you think resembles you best?
I don't really follow celebrity lifestyles.. so I really dunno.
36. If you had to pick one, which cast member of Lost would you be?
The one who sits in the back and pretends he's in a better place..?
37. What do you want when you are sick?
Soup, sandwiches, and my SNES. Boo yah!
38. Who from school would you like to run into?
Scott Lynch.. to find out if I'm on his hit-list. *smirk*
39. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
...not having a car, do I still qualify for this question? 102.1 The Edge.. listening the The Ongoing History of New Music.
43. Raskolnikov (Crime & Punishment) or Leo Myshkin (the Idiot)?
I plead the fifth. So what if I'm not American?!
44. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
*shrugs* I don't believe I've really had mistakes in what little experience I have. Just things to learn from.
45. Do you like the person who's directly across/beside from you at work?
I don't work in an office, so the person across/beside me is usually different every day.
46. If you could get away with it, whom would you kill?
My boss's boss's boss's boss.
47. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
Nathan Lane. I'd love to spend some time with him.
48. What famous person would you like to sleep with?
Matt Groening.. not so much for what may happen, but for the pillow talk!
49. Have you ever had to use a firearm?
Never had to use one. But I do wonder what it would feel like sometimes.
50. Last book you read?
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.
51. Do you have a teddy bear?
A few bears.. and a handful of others too. I'm sleeping with a husky right now. *wink*
52. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
In a NASA rocket! Wait...
53. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
Magic Mountain! I think that's what its called...
54. Number of texts in a day?
Quite a few if I'm on the computer. On the phone, since its much more annoying, not so many.
55. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or relationship?
I'd love to have both of those things.. what I have isn't a career or a relationship.
56. Favorite Winter Olympic Sport?
Ski Jumping! Its always the funniest event in those old Winter Olympic games because you can crash in so many ways!
57. Pencil or pen?
Pencil.
58. Ancient Egyptians or Mayans?
Egyptians.
59. How many jobs have you had?
Only a few, really.. but I've handled a lot of expensive equipment in some of them.
60. Are you where you thought you would be at this age?
Not really. I hardly feel the same way I did back when I was first trying to look into the future, so thats a tricky one.
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Saturday, February 17th, 2007
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| Time: | 4:08 pm. |
| Mood: | bouncy. | | Music: | Cake - Long Line of Cars. |
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I went and bought a new computer. And by that, I mean a friend of mine from work ordered the parts, put it together and dropped it off. The sad thing of it is that I'm not sure about all the specs on it or just how much better it is than my old one. What I -will- say though, its that its a sexy machine.
...that's right. I said sexy. *grin*
The night I first had it, quite literally, I starred at it for a half hour, taking in the fact that this machine was mine. And perhaps that would seem really strange to other people.. but to me, this is the first comp that I've ever had that was -new-. There are no hand-me-down parts from my father, my brother, or a friend. Its just.. new. Its got a fan that has three different settings! There are a few other things about it that are neat, such as the easy way it puts in and takes out drives, the new cable system inside (of which I know very little about.. even to the point that I forget what its called..), and a swingy door. *smirks* I'm very happy with it.. though not too comfortable with -calling- it.. it. I need a name for my sexellent machine.
On a different level though, this is the most expensive thing I've ever bought. I don't recall ever spending more than a thousand bucks on -anything- before. Its going to take some time to pay it back, and this will help me.. and thusly -force- me.. to start bugdeting my income. I don't want this debt forever, and the longer I keep it, the more interest builds up. So all I need to do is just keep myself working for the next handful of months, make sure I stick to what I am setting aside to make payments, and hope that nothing drastic happens.
On a side-note, someone from work bought my old comp, minus the 250 gig HD that I just recently bought for it, which went to my father. And as I speak right now, he's trying to make it work on his machine. He's got a rather old computer, and its not recognizing the drive.. so this is problematic. My friend who put together my comp said he'd come have a look at it.. but is my father willing to wait? Of course not. *smirks* He's trying vainly to just make it work.. even if by some stroke of luck, it just will. He's just that type of person..
That's all I've got to say right now. I'll post again.. someday. *chuckles*
~Tox
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Wednesday, January 24th, 2007
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| Time: | 12:49 pm. |
| Mood: | awake. | | Music: | Tomi Swick - Stalled Out in the Doorway. |
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Alrighty..
Well, I've called up a place called Lutherwood, which basically is a government-funded program that helps young people with resume writing and interview preparation, and a little boost in the right direction job-wise.. and I'm hoping they'll be able to help me out. Just have to go in and talk to one of the people there and see what happens. They actually pointed a buddy of mine to a course offered by the local college.. though for me its not entirely local.. that assesses you personally and gives you an idea of what you should be looking into. Though I imagine that ultimately it points to one of their -other- courses, which you pay actual money for, in the end. Still.. maybe that's where I'll wind up going too. It couldn't hurt to have a personal assessment..
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There's a lot in me that's afraid to post about the people I hold close to me.. but maybe if I just write a few words and see what happens, it won't be as bad as I think.
Chris.. you know I love you. And its something I rarely ever say, but I do. Like I've been saying, I want you to be happy with what you choose to do, and if that leads you away from me, then I'll cope with it. You're right though.. it would be very difficult for us to get together often, and beyond that, live with one another. There's not a whole lot else I could say that we haven't been talking about recently.. just know that I do love you.
Fox.. you've got a spot in the back of my mind now, hon. *chuckles* That voice that tells me to be stronger when I would normally just bend to the will of others. Just the way that you're not afraid to tell people how it is is sometimes freaky to me. I'm used to swaying in the wind, but a thought of you is encouraging to stand up straight. *hugs*
Xaia.. you know, I would really love to hear you try 'Snow White Queen'. Or even -my- favourite from the CD, 'Good Enough'. You, like Fox, have a way of being strong. I need to know more people who aren't afraid to get a little dirty in order to better the way things are. But you're a sweetheart too.. so you've got a total package thing going on luv. *laughs*
Tim & Wendy.. I think it would be just freakin' awesome if you moved closer. I'd love to be able to come out there more often, regardless of that happening though. You two have been a strong encouraging factor to me too.. and I know I haven't done much with it, but when it comes down to actually -doing- something different about my situation, you're the first ones that come to mind. Much love to you guys.. and the kids..
Dave & John.. we seem to have fallen out here. I don't really know much about you guys anymore, and that's a sad thing considering what's gone on between us. We used to pray together online for crying out loud.. I just hope you two are doing alright.
Jason.. I don't even really know if you read this man, but I hope that I'm more than just a guy you see every Saturday to GM to you. Its been a few years, but some of the better times in my life I owe to you and that group. I really hope that you're able to get a better temp job, and better yet, an actual full-time teaching job. You've had a rather large impact on my life too, ya know.. taught me that famous people sometimes are just people too. *ruffles*
Nevy.. I've started picking up my guitar a lot more often now. So I hope that you are doing the same, because I -know- you can play much better than I can. *grin* Guitar Hero will only take you so far, pally.. anyway, I hope you're well. Don't hear much from you these days, so maybe you've got a lot going on for you that I don't know about, eh?
Andrew, Veris, Page.. thanks for sort of inducting me into the Friday night group. We barely say aything outside of the sessions, but I do think about you guys as friends.
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Being that there really isn't a whole lot else going on for me on any other front, I s'pose this would be a good place to stop. I've got the movie 'Clerks' waiting for me upstairs to watch, so.. everyone take care. Drive safe too.. I don't want to be hearing any news reports about you folks..
~Tox
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Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
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| Time: | 8:18 pm. |
| Mood: | calm. | | Music: | Wide Mouth Mason - Falling Down. |
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Several gift certificates later, I find myself loaded with more new music. Lesse..
Our Lady Peace - "A Decade"
This one is just a greatest hits album. Two previously unrecorded tracks, which are alright.. but they don't really touch on the good stuff. One of my fav bands here, so picking this up was inevitable..
Meatloaf - "Bat out of Hell"
Um... I just wanted this one. I really like it. Don't give me that look! Its a remastered version too, so there are two live tracks.. which I don't plan on listening to all that often. Just want the good stuff. That's right.. GOOD STUFF!
All-American Rejects - "Move Along"
They've captured my attention.. and I'm not really sure why. They're just snazzy songs. Not much to say about it though..
Hinder - "Extreme Behavior"
I gave into the peer pressure at work. They were all like 'Hinder is awesome! Go buy it!' and I'm like '...I'll see.' I read that they actually refused to tour with a band called Skillet because they're a Christian rock band. Which is -really- weird 'cause in the thank-you's section of the CD booklet, all but one person in the band thanks God. So... yeah.
Dragonforce - "Inhuman Rampage"
......where do you start with this one. The music is just.. wtf!! I was left many times with the thought 'how'd he play that..?' This is the sort of thing I'd recommend Nev listen to just to see if his jaw drops. *chuckles* That said though, a lot of the songs sound very similar. Musically, I mean.. the vocals are hard enough to make out without having two guitars doing solos and a hyper drummer double-kicking all the way through the tracks.
Hot Hot Heat - "Elevator"
This is just a poppy-music CD. I love it! Its not complex, its not hardcore.. its just cool. And better yet, they're Canadian! Not sure what else to say but if you can pick up a few tracks, listen to 'em. Don't go in with high expectations, but with an attitude of having something to enjoy on a simple level.
Green Day - "American Idiot"
Just had to rebuy this one after it was stolen at work. And I don't care what people say to me.. I -like- it! I liked 'Wake Me Up Before September Ends' -before- it became popular, damn it!
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I don't really have anything else to say right now.. but I do want to update sometime in the next couple days with something more substancial. So until then.. go appriciate a good view of the stars. ^_^
~Tox
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Monday, December 18th, 2006
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| Time: | 9:47 pm. |
| Mood: | morose. | | Music: | Boccherini Quartet - "Ave Maria". |
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Just a few thoughts right now.. and if you don't want to hear complaining, then don't read it.
( Clicky )
I haven't expressed any excitement about it yet, and I really feel bad for that.. but I'm going to be an uncle for a third time very soon. And though it puts me to shame, I'm rather glad that the family is growing. I really hope Tim and Wendy are doing alright.. I wish I were more in touch with them. They've been very supportive, and the least I can do is to give a thumbs-up on having three kids. I know that they're going to need a lot -more- than that when the child comes, mind you.. *smirk*
I've been in and out of a relationship with Chris in the last few months, speaking of family. Its becoming very straining to realize that I need a lot more than I thought I did when I started. Makes me feel like I'm either leaning too much on him, or not enough. A partnership is like that, eh? *sigh* I know he loves me a lot.. and that's comforting. Now if I could -return- that, then I'd be in a much better place.
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I was actually planning on this being a longer entry, but I think the rant up there took it out of me. So just one thing before I go.
While on the front register at work, I was hit by an actual racial slur. The funny thing about it is that I'm -not- what this customer was implying. He called me a Jew.
I dunno.. something about that is very wrong. The situation was mearly that I had to charge him an extra 35 cents or so for something he wanted, and he didn't feel the need to be charged at all. But really, I don't think I've really been discriminated like that before for something that -wasn't- my weight. I guess I just feel really weird about it. Amused.. but weird.
Anyways.. y'all take care.
~Tox
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Monday, December 4th, 2006
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Thursday, November 9th, 2006
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Heya folks.
I've had an obsession for the last few weeks for The Phantom of the Opera. Must have listened to it about 9 or 10 times within the month already. Its an odd thing, really.. it spooks me. The phantom's parts and music stick in my head and make it difficult for me to go into darkness without looking over my shoulder. *smirks* But the production as a whole is so fantastic that I don't really mind. Its just something very great to me. A gift given to the world that I will cherish for a long time..
It makes me wish I could go back in time and watch it all again. I wonder if its still playing somewhere..
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Another thing I've been obsessing over lately, come to think of it, is South Park. I've been watching it a lot over the past couple weeks. Its such an over-the-top show sometimes that I wonder if perhaps I should be offended at some of the happenings in it. I can't say that it does though.. I just understand the humour and find it funny. The show pokes fun at many things important things in life. And Jennifer Lopez.
Really, its a question to myself asking where my morality level is. How can I watch it and laugh/gross out, but continue to be entertained? The last thing, I think, that really turned me away was when I came across a particular version of Mario 2.. that's right, the Mario 2 for the NES. The game was modified that each character played a KKK member and instead of turnips and whatnot that get pulled out of the ground, you pull out a black-skinned infant. I found that to be too much in bad taste to play. I dunno.. where's the line for me..
Sorry, I'm just kind of thinking out loud here.
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The new installment of Big Shiny Tunes came out sometime in the last couple weeks. I make it a point to collect them all, even if some of them aren't particularly captivating compilations. This year though seems to have brought a good mix of rock music together. North American rock music, I should say. Though I have to ask.. and I don't think many of you will know who I'm talking about here.. How is it that Metric is so popular?? I just don't understand it.. they are bland, hardly instrumental, and dull. I mean, even Spears outdoes the spunk in this group.. I was going to say Hanson, but hey, that'd be downright insulting. The reason I bring up Metric is because they have a track on this CD. I have to ask.. why? *sigh* I mean, they put "Bat Country" on here.. so we're going from adrenaline-rush to broken-slinky in the disc's dynamics.
I picked up "Black Parade" this week too. Um..is it just me, or did someone deflate MCR's balloon juuuust a little? Its a bit less thrashy than "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge", though I have to admit, I haven't heard their first CD. Maybe its a direction they meant to go in.. *shrugs* Its not a -bad- album, and I should listen to it a few more times.. and hey, did anyone else notice the homage to Kiss' "Detriot Rock City" in there? I forget the song, but its there.
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I find it very difficult to finish the things I start. Don't know why I'm saying that here, but I think its worth admitting to. I think I touched on that in my last entry, actually.. I haven't done what I've wanted to do since then. But at least its still on my mind. Now comes the time when I need to exercise that discipline of mine, because Lord knows its very much out of shape.
That'll about do it for me this time around.. take care guys. Love ya. ^_^
~Tox
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sick.
amused.
geeky.